I am an old sage…listen closely to my wisdom before my soul withers away…
Teach us, o wise one
you are not an anime character. your actions impact others and do not only exist in theory. nobody is required to stick around for your tragic backstory or to learn the reasons behind your actions. if you treat people like garbage, they are allowed to think of you as a jerk and nothing more. nobody is obligated to analyze you or think twice when you hurt them. similarly, you are not required to stick around to listen to other people’s reasons for treating you like trash. you can call them a jerk, cut them out of your life, and call it a day.
Tag: reminders
let yrself be awkward, let yrself mess up. not every interaction has to be as perfectly articulated as a scene from a show. nobody remembers the stupid thing you’ve been beating yourself up over all day. if u sit there, isolate yourself + keep every social interaction at a superficial lvl yr never gonna make those connections we all need as human beings. stop letting perfect get in the way of not-too-shabby.
why do i have to settle ???? for mediocre half assed people to be in my life? no, i’m not going to anymore. there are going to be beautiful souls who i will create beautiful relationships with. i’m not even going to settle with myself. i’m not settling. i’m making myself the best version i can be, the person i truly am. i’m not settling for anything “just because”. i’m going for what i actually what i want to do in my career and education. i don’t have time to settle for shit that makes my life miserable or underwhelming.
to-do list: november
- control your environment. surround yourself with the kindest people, with the calmest music, with the softest clothes. make yourself comfortable. the world will not always do it for you.
- be as independent as you possibly can, but do not fear reaching for help. you are constantly growing and improving, don’t let your obsession with autonomy hinder you from becoming a better version of yourself.
- set your priorities straight. there are things you want to do, and there are things you need to do, and there are things you need to do in order to do the things you want to do. do them first.
- believe in your abilities. believe in your aspirations, your reasons, and your hopes. hold on to your motivation as much as possible. everyone needs time, but many forget that they need their own strength as well.
- be overwhelmed. make mistakes. be thoroughly done with everything. notice how you change during your low points in life. notice how you plant a seed in your mind, something that will bloom. take care of it. you will grow and flourish soon enough.
thesis: you can’t seek your self-worth from others if you haven’t developed it for yourself
antithesis: endless gazing into the self denies you connection with others and will only alienate you further from satisfaction
synthesis: share some fruit and cheese with your friends and calm down
Sometimes it is your fault.. Sometimes you don’t listen well enough, you’re selfish, you’re rude and you aren’t always right. Sometimes you fucked it up and tbh that’s okay. It happens, learn from it, apologize and keep it moving. Just because you fucked up doesn’t mean you’re a bad person. Don’t dwell on it
u guys have no idea how important it is to have a well established sense of self outside of say ur interests or some core group of things that define u because thats not all there is to a person like we cant go around forging relationships based on both of us being short like u gotta expand ur horizons and develop ur personalities even if ur boring now u can work on that but to do that u need to purge ur current self of all of these personality fillers like mbti types or hogwarts houses or whatever and replace them with actual traits that actual people possess outside of the internet unless u want ur life to begin and end with ur online persona ok that is all
to those of u who don’t know who you’ll be once u recover: it’s ok to feel scared. recovery is a slow process, you’re not gonna flip a switch and suddenly become a new person but overtime you’ll notice yourself grow out of old habits; and new ones will take root. you’ll be more self aware and have the tools needed to develop and grow in healthy ways. change is always scary but if the old rut you’re in isn’t helping u, it might be worth considering.
please make sure that wherever you’re at in life, you don’t treat it like a transitory period. don’t waste your college years wishing to already be graduated & have a job. don’t waste your single years wishing for someone to be in love with. if/when those things come, they will come in due time and they will be good. but there is nothing like looking back and feeling empty because you wasted literal years ignoring what you had because you were hoping for something better. while it’s important to better yourself and reach for your goals, don’t neglect the present because that’s where you are now and it’s your now that determines your future.
sometimes you need to do the hard thing. study for your test even if it’s boring and you want to avoid it. get up an hour early to exercise even if you feel like death. go out of your way to help someone else even if it’s inconvenient. do something alone even though you’re afraid of being judged. go somewhere new even if it’s scary and disorientating at first. confess to the person who makes u blush even if it means risking rejection. let go of your old habits even though it feels like you can’t live without them. it’s supposed to be hard. life isn’t going to have amazing rewards if you’re always feeling comfortable.
I feel the mountains burn inside 