There’s nothing wrong with being closeted. Not everyone has the resources and safety to be out. Being closeted doesn’t make you less than those who are out.
Tag: txt
*someone calls my name*
Me, to the fuzzy land of disassociation I’m stuck in: oh shit that’s me guys, gotta go
life with mental illness is actually so fucking exhausting
honestly, i can’t explain the kind of tiredness that’s caused by being mentally unwell
it’s like your veins are tired. your bones are tired. your hair is tired. your actual soul is tired
never feel guilty for resting.
I tell everyone this and I mean it. Buy a journal. Carry it with you everywhere you go. And I mean everywhere. Write about your favorite moments, your least favorite moments, ideas, grocery lists, people you’ve met, strangers you’ve walked past on the street, favorite quotes, words to remember, what the sky looked like at 7pm, new songs you’ve discovered and what they mean to you, your childhood, places you want to go or places you’ve been, write about your passions, how you feel in this exact moment, draw out the mountains, scribble all over the pages. And when that one gets full, buy a new one. Reread it in 2 years, 20 years, when you need a good laugh, when you’re crying on your bathroom floor, read it to your children. You need to remember these moments in your life. They are so important.
fuck it *discovers my inner worth*
I used to think it was important to have common interests with the person that you are in a relationship with but now I think it is more important to be similar in other aspects. like how kind you are. how you treat the people you care about, how you treat strangers. how you deal with anger. how you deal with pain. and not necessarily dealing with all these things the same way but being perseptive enough to understand what action each situation calls for. it’s important for both people to be on the same page about what that action should be. it’s important to me to have that kind of synchrony.
im so happy its getting colder. i can eat snow soon
thank god dark mode themes are becoming more common
tbh my heart is real different than it was last year this time around
6i:
it takes years to develop your craft. do not romanticize the idea of an ‘overnight success’. be a student. grow organically. get really good. hate your work. start over. find new ways to express the same ideas. the student becomes the master. your time will come.